What a difference a fill makes!

Well this last week has been interesting food wise. I do not think I am too full but I do think I let my self get a little slack on the "rules". Especially the chewing rule!

I seem to have forgotten small bites and chewing until there is no consistency at all. I am getting there. But slowly. I had a few days of misery. Nothing was staying down and I refused to eat soup. Strange thing is I was on my (.) for the first few days after my fill and I swear I could have eaten a house. Without chewing mind you. Then as soon as ole periodical was gone...restriction kicked in. Monday and Tuesday of this week I simply wasn't eating enough and paired with my lack of B vitamins my energy level dropped off at lunch time. I would get lethargic and dizzy. Just blah!

Now I've told you lovely people before that my mom is mega nurse, my sister graduates with nursing degree this week, and my BFF is a dietitian. All three had a go at me about what I needed to do! Gosh, I love it. (eye roll). But the truth of it is this. I need to take those BLOODY vitamins (British cursing in sued). I need to eat slowly and chew. I need to get plenty of water. Especially since I am working my ass off at the moment.

I have never been a grazer on any regular level. Of course at parties I would typically graze. Grab a taste of everything..come back for more...and find what I loved...come back for more. But I have noticed that this week I have had to graze. Have a bite of tuna. Come back in 5 minutes for another bite. Maybe finish in 30 min. Grab a carrot...munch on that. 25 minutes later maybe another.  It took me an hour to eat 4 wings people. I could eat 10 and have a salad and be happy! 4- 50 cent wings. I am a $2.00 date now!

STUCK!

Last night I had my launch Trunk Show for Stella & Dot. Oh my gosh was this fun! I was so worried about people showing up. So worried I wouldn't sell anything. Worried about what to say. I am not kidding when I say I literally didn't have to say a stinking word. One look at my displays which my employee at our shop made for me and the women went wild! At one point the sound was deafening in my house! I gave no intro, no pitch, no sales information...nothing! They wouldn't let me even if I wanted! I was pleased, so very! ANYWAY..I made finger foods, had wine spritzers, and a cheese cake. I grazed, mostly before people got there because it was to busy when the ladies arrived. I made these Asian ginger meatballs that were fabulous but at the end of the night I got one out and took a bite, chewed, and thought everything was peachy. Then for some strange reason I took a big swig of water. Wha-What? Why in the hell would I do that!? Totally blocked. I looked at my husband and said that is the first time this has ever happened to me. That water is totally stuck and will not go down at all!

I LEAPED * like a gazelle * in to the hall way bathroom..and out came the water, into the potty, and (here is the nasty part) splashed right back up into my face. Thank God for glasses! This would be a reason to wait 30 minutes until you drink, people. But in 5 months...alright 4 months and 3 weeks....I've never been totally blocked like that~ Stuck on food yes. Pb'd for 20 minutes yes...painful get it out of here feeling, yes. But totally blocked. Nope.

204.4.

Two days in a row.

4.4 lbs before I am below 200! Insanity.

My goal to be 199 before we go to the beach on the 27th might actually happen!

Yay!