So Many things..so little time! A message from the chaotic

First...today I was 198.2.

After days, a month even..of bitching about a non moving scale. I saw the elusive onederland. I say this today and we shall see what happens tomorrow but when I entered onederland before it was always 199.5. I wouldn't accept it until it was 198 for a few days. So we shall see.

But here is what I know!

I will not accept not getting to my goal of 175...That is a goal I want to make and if I get there and re asses and decide to go to 150 then fine. But 175 is what I'd like to be first. I knew that the first part of this journey might be easier then the last part. I knew that I would have to work at this. I knew that NOTHING would be easy!

So here is what I am doing about it!

I joined the B.O.O.Bs Back to Basic Challenge. I weighed in at 201 I think.

Even bigger then that, I joined my gyms Weightloss Challenge which begins on the 18th. I will have two group sessions a week with a trainer and one personal training session a week for 12 weeks, I have a 12 week use of a body bugg with option to buy at half off at the end of the session, weekly weigh ins, nutrition advice, measurements...and accountability!

I am pumped! I like 2 out of 3 of the trainers. The 3rd is just fine..he just is a meat head in my opinion. I go for my assessment next Wednesday. I am looking to lose weight and tone.

My Question To You All!?

This challenge has prizes involved. Honestly I am not doing this for the prizes but they don't hurt either. Anyway...I haven't signed the forms yet so I am not sure what the rules and regulations are but: If there is no stipulation about WLS am I obligated to share that information? Main reason I don't want to share it is that i have kept this a secrete from the general public. I live in a small town, the trainers are friends with a lot of people I know, the owner of the gym is the brother of a close friend and anything I EVER say in that gym gets around. But I don't want to be a cheat.

You and I both know that this surgery isn't always easy. We have to work. I have had to work...and I will continue to do so. But do you think I ought to keep quiet and if I possibly win maybe in confidence ask them to omit me as a winner? Or don't give me the top prize? Or maybe I should just tell them from the beginning? Although I don't want to.

Morally speaking what do you guys think? Not medically because medically I don't think I have to disclose any information. But I want to be fair.

All this might have no bearing once I read the rules but I am battling this a little in my head.

If I can't do this challenge I will possibly buy a Body Bugg and work with a trainer. But it comes out cheaper if I do the challenge!

So what do you think?

Never, never, never, never, ever give up. Right Kellie?

Catching up...

reading blogs written over the weekend and Kellie wrote several quotes to inspire us! She said her favorite which just happens to be mine as well is this.

"Never, never, never, never, ever give up." Winston Churchill


Last week I wrote a little about needing some help. Some thing was keeping me down. Me, perhaps. I was keeping me down. Wait, I am keeping me down!

I worked out every day last week...including Saturday. Best thing is I swam on Saturday. Laps.

Chris and I took Saturday and Monday off from work. He actually decided to come in to the shop on Saturday to get some work down without customers. I decided to go an work out. I did about a 1/2 mile on the ARC Trainer and then decided to swim laps. If you remember I was a competitive swimmer for 18 years. Coached and taught lessons all through college! I probably haven't swam laps in years. But I enjoyed it. I swam 20 laps consecutively...I really feel like I could have doubled that but adult swim was over and the children were waiting at the door.  So a new work out to add.

I started the Back to Basics Challenge on Sunday! 201.0. I am happy with that weigh in but of course the very next day it was up a lb. Then this morning it was 200.8...so who knows. But I am excited to see what comes of this challenge!

I have also decided to do a few days of liquids. I am thinking Wednesday and Thursday. Do you guys do pure liquids? Or just soups with small amounts of chunks?

I think I will make a fill appointment too! As small tweak. Some days I am great with the eating some days I could eat a horse. So...I am doing what Winston suggests! Never giving up. I want these last 25 lbs to go so I can see where my next goal is!



My weekend was great BTW. 22 people showed up last night. I did ribs and turkey sausage for 22 people! I will never in my life understand why people don't RSVP for these events then call the day of and say they are coming. And I am the sucker that says okay! But it was fun...for everyone else. Nah it was fun for me but I swear my arm hair was singed in the rib cooking! I am tired today for sure. But I guess that is what it is all about!


Motivation Monday! Oh wait, it's Tuesday. Screw the motivation then! :)

I am stuck...and I don't mean with food!

All day long that is what I felt like! Last night I ate about 5oz of chicken 1 oz of left over fillet, maybe 3 table spoons of squash, same of (left over)mashed potato's, and same of spinach. Maybe even a bit more of all the veggies. The night before I ate about 5 oz of fillet, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes, one bread stick and about 3/4 of a cup of salad maybe.  That is more food then I have been able to eat in ages.

Granted I have been working out every morning. Unlike last week and the week before-nothing. I do okay during the day but once I get home I am bloody starving.  I start the day with a greek yogurt, maybe a string cheese, lunch is various items. I agree that I could be making better food choices for lunch but I am still not over eating. But why am I so hungry when I get home???

For one, I do know that my hormones are out of whack. I took myself off of my crappy birth control. Not so much to try and get pregnant but more to feel normal again. I am so much more myself these last three weeks then I have been in a while. I actually like my husband. I mean I liked him..but I did not LIKE him. If you catch my meaning without TMI. Hee hee I am a bit prudish I suppose.

So maybe along with my hormonal issues it has been making me starving.   I went to the beach with my husband on May 27th. I have not lost a single lb.I have been regaining the same 2 lbs..I lose a few oz and then gain it back. Lose it, then gain it! Grrrrrrr. Should I call for a fill? I went June 14th and he didn't think I needed one.

I think I need to get back to basics. Remember to stop eating when I am full, recognize the fact I am full, Protein first (although generally I am pretty good about that), no drinking with meal...you know the rest.  I just need to do it! I would seriously love to lose another 25 lbs...I would feel a major success and even if I kept going at that point I still would feel like I did what I set out to do!

Any pointers ladies??

4th of July

Hubs and I can see the town fireworks from our porch. It is like a personal viewing. We are having about 10 people over for ribs, turkey sausage, squash, tomatoes, cucumbers, onions, mac and cheese (made by a friend)  and various other items. All of the veggies come from our gardens with the exception of the onions! I have haricot vert's as well (fancy green beans ya'll hee hee) but I think I will save them for just me and Chris. Lima beans are coming in, my husbands fav. Sugar snap peas are done and so are the beets!

I love fresh veg. Love it

I found a microwave pickle recipe online. Bread and butter so there is a good amount of sugar but I add garlic, onion, and siracha sauce. So they are sweet and spicy. Now that I typically eat in small amounts I don't deny myself a few pickles with sugar. A year ago I'd skip it. Either way it is a really good way for me not to waste these beautiful cucumbers that are coming up strong this year!

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I am happy. I really really am. But I want to lose some more. Help me.